but it's only a memory now..

Want me to me honest? You won. You're not hurt. You're not broken. You're not lonely. You're not regretful. You don't think about last October every night before you fall asleep. I don't talk to you now because you've moved on and i haven't. And where does that leave me? Time heals everything ; that's what they say. I believed it, i still do to some extent. I don't know, i just feel like maybe things like this happen only to be a memory. I feel like when i had what i did, i didn't notice it. I didn't notice how lost i'd feel without it. Do you know how it feels to be replaced? It makes you wonder what she has that you don't. It makes you put the blame on yourself. It makes you lose interest in the good things about yourself because you're constantly trying to measure up. It's so tiring, being flawed. It's exhausting being flawed in comparison with someone who is perfect. She has everything. The looks, the personality.......you. And it's selfish, but i want her to hurt the same way i had to. There's no way i can sit back and watch her get everything while i don't , the way i have been my whole life. I know now that i'm the other girl to you. The way i see it i'm THEE girl, not the other girl. SHE'S the other girl, not the girl. It's different now, i realize that. You realize that. I've changed, you've changed. Everything has changed, i'm just slower to adapt to it. But God forbid, maybe it's not time yet. Things like this happen only to be a memory .